Crutches

It's a sad world we live in when one must pay others in order to experience any kind of pain, but that was the situation I found myself in a couple of weeks ago. After paying a tidy little sum of money, I was made to wait for several hours in nothing but a gown, put to sleep, and woken up a couple of hours later with my foot wrapped in bandages and in no small amount of pain. People call this barbaric practice "medicine."

And so it was that a biopsy went by without a hitch. I'm to find the results of that on Wednesday. At the same time, I can get these stinky bandages off, of which I was forbidden to remove without gaining their permission and explicit instructions on how to replace. Having to stay off of one measly foot has made life a little more difficult than I'd like. Normal, mundane things I took for granted, such as carrying objects and moving chairs, are suddenly more involved, sometimes even difficult. My exercise routine has been thrown off and may be for some time while my foot heals. Getting in and out of my car has become something of a small ceremony as I hobble and contort about while placing my instruments of locomotion in strategic locations for later retrieval and use.

The people, on the other hand, have generally been very nice. Almost too nice. It's unnerving getting unasked, small favors from quite a few folk. I assume nobody pays attention to what I do because I live in a shell and invite nobody in. It's how I live. It's how I've survived. If I really sit and think about it, it's also pretty arrogant and selfish. Who am I to judge others unworthy, without feeling, or without care, especially if I don't make the effort and time to learn of them and partake in their lives as they allow? Alas that I should have to learn these things in some kind of hard, painful manner.

A story doth brew, and has been for the last couple of years. The week ahead will be busy, but I've got plenty if road time to meditate on it. Now I kinda wish there was someone riding with me to the rehearsals and performances in Lubbock. Alas, it's a little late for that now.